The Lies That Bind, and Break, a Friendship
IMPERFECT WOMEN
By Araminta Hall
As unkind as the three main characters of Araminta Hall’s “Imperfect Women” can be to one another — envious, judgmental, competitive and spiteful — their internecine meanness is nothing like the brutality of their self-laceration. As one hisses to herself: “You’re no better than the ugly sisters trying to squeeze their feet into the glass slipper, trying to take what isn’t yours.” (To be fair to her harsh analysis, she is sleeping with her dead friend’s husband at the time.)
Hall is a British novelist whose first thriller, “Our Kind of Cruelty,” was a chilling story about a man obsessed with his ex-girlfriend. Here she turns her close attention to women — how complicated their lives are; the Faustian bargains they make when they get married and raise children, or not; the complicated nature of their friendships; how hard they are on each other and themselves.
The three main characters — Eleanor, Nancy and Mary — have been best friends since the day they met during their first week at Oxford. Now they’re grown and their lives have spun in varied directions, as lives tend to do, throwing into relief the differences in their financial, professional and romantic fortunes.
Two are married and have children; one isn’t and doesn’t. One has a great job; the others don’t. All are filled with regrets of broken dreams and paths not taken and envy at what their friends apparently have. Not one is entirely happy with her choices, with her own particular approach to the classic work-life balance conundrum. (Does anyone ever solve that problem?) All try to be good people and none really succeed.
Death comes quickly in the story when Nancy’s battered corpse is found by the side of the road early one morning. It is a horrible shock. Nancy was the enchanted princess of the trio, with beauty, charm, wit, an attractive husband, plenty of money. Even in death, one of her friends says, she “had more influence than most people did when they lived.”
Who wouldn’t want to kill someone like that?
Everyone is a suspect. There’s Nancy’s secret lover, whom she was apparently planning to leave on account of his excessive clinginess and irritating self-regard. (We won’t learn his identity until later.) There’s her apparently clueless husband, Robert, whose claim that he knew nothing about Nancy’s extramarital activities is not particularly convincing.
And there are, of course, her best friends: jealous, never-married Eleanor — who fancied Robert first, but who never stood a chance with him while Nancy was alive — and mousy Mary, a martyr to her own cruel and overbearing husband and her demanding children.
Each woman gets her own discrete section in the book, which takes place in three time frames: when the murder is discovered (Eleanor); the period just before (Nancy); and what happens later (Mary). Coming after Eleanor’s account, Nancy’s extended pre-death flashback is a revelation.
Who was she, anyway? Probe beneath the glittering surface of such a person and see how easy it is for an outsider to get it wrong, to forget that no one is as perfect or happy or fulfilled as we imagine in our jealous fantasies.
We hear that Nancy feels hollow and useless, flattened by malaise; that she envies her friends for their “thicker and fuller” lives; that her husband discounts her distress; that a perfect storm of unhappy emptiness has made her ripe for the giddy euphoria of an affair that does little but feed her ego.
Now she is rived with guilt, the initial headiness of the relationship ceding to the realization that her lover is, basically, a controlling jerk. “Her head was filled with terrible thoughts that made her want to scream into a darkened corner,” Hall writes. “The sharpness of her betrayal wedged itself between her ribs like an arrow, its poison spreading through her blood.”
The book creeps on you slowly, like a fog, until you find yourself enveloped in this tangled skein of relationships, eager to see how all this is going to play out, who is going to betray whom and in what way. Sometimes you feel annoyed at the women for being so baroquely hard on themselves, just as Robert feels annoyed at what he perceives to be Nancy’s whining about her amorphous unhappiness. “You can be many things in this life, but a dissatisfied woman is not one of them,” Nancy thinks.
The final section of the book is reserved for Mary, the faded friend. Her surrender to wifehood and motherhood has turned her into what appears at first to be the least interesting person in the original trio of friends, particularly now that her ghastly husband has fallen prey to some sort of irritating illness that requires her constant attention. But she’s not boring at all. Everyone has underestimated the depths of her feelings and the lengths she is willing to go.
“Imperfect Women” is not a conventional detective story, but an investigation into character and motivation. The real mysteries concern love, friendship, obligation, the disappointments that come with the passage of time and the mysteries of other people’s hearts — as well as your own.
“It will always be difficult for a man to understand what women mean to each other,” Nancy says at one point. “None of them,” she observes, thinking about herself and her friends, “had really become what they imagined for themselves when they used to sit up into early mornings discussing what they would do with their lives.”
Nancy’s death, as shocking and unfortunate as it is, turns out to be a precursor to the real story here, a long tease for the twist Hall saves for the end of this surprising book. After all that has happened, it feels like poetic justice.